EURYDICE ("FROM A DISTANCE") Speck on the other world, is your hood pulled tight and tied? Blemish on this world, wearing a raincoat walking in the rainstorm is a good idea, say the wise. Mist is a baleful procedure, how grass grows is a procedure, both tree and squirrel follow procedures, the lover disguises herself in procedure: she raises the mainsail, she raises the jib. Her soul is like that, a woman alone at sea. Eurydice’s in the distance, we cannot know what she is thinking, she is following; maybe she is humming then singing against pain: thinking but declaring nothing along the trail, whistling, remembering, counting, then with sudden breath at his neck: "Don't turn round, shroud of shrouds"... __ ORPHEUS ("PERSPECTIVE") Just before or just after turning round? Or in-between, one breath from the tape-breaking, boy becomes man, finally, on the frontier, free gesture sorrowful Orpheus can’t take back because now she is gone again, the beloved, it’s been decided? Maybe you wish to review the attending grieving, as this may teach you better how to endure? Or you prefer to watch the long hours of anxiety filling his head before he yields to the inevitable gravity? I can’t deny your choice may lead you to greater self-knowledge, etc. It could even make you stronger, it could start to make you whole again, studying the flickering restraint or self-torture. But just so you don’t forget, it wasn’t his fault or hers, yours or mine, we shouldn’t blame God or nature. The sun was shining. Beautiful Orpheus turned. ____ Orpheus and Eurydice crowd into my manuscript "Hex," even more be-hexed, if just barely, than its abject (but willing to learn another way!) speaker. |