Closing Time
T didn’t have time to change. The phone rang as soon as he got home
from work. Music blared behind a cacophony of barroom noises, and
from somewhere in the pit of that discord, Darlene told him she was too
drunk to drive and needed him to come pick her up, special delivery.
She was in a bar on Buckhorn Street. T told her he’d be there in
a few minutes, please be waiting out front. “Just come in and get
me, babe,” she said, and hung up. Driving to the bar in the Airborne
Express van, T tried to relax, but couldn’t help thinking how odd it was
that he’d agreed to move from Boston to Sequoia in the first place because
he thought life in the Ozarks would be slow and friendly.
He had come with his now ex-wife, who’d won a fellowship at the university.
During their first week in Sequoia, they were sitting in a bar when a college
student slid in next to T’s wife and draped his arm around her. The
kid was just drunk, but T couldn’t leave it alone. He pretended he
was getting up to go to the bathroom and elbowed the kid as hard as he
could in the face. That was the fight. T was thrown out and
banned for life. Back at their apartment his wife asked him what
the fuck he had been thinking. T looked at her and said, “I know.”
For nine months all they did was fight and have sex; then the sex stopped.
Then she said she needed some time by herself. T thought she meant
a movie or an afternoon shopping. “Go ahead,” he said. That
Saturday afternoon when he walked into their bedroom after work, all her
stuff was gone, even the bed. T left her alone for almost a week,
until late one night when he couldn’t take it anymore and decided to ask
her to come home. He drove to her house as if he were late for a
wedding. When he saw a glow coming from her bedroom, he cut the lights,
killed the engine, and coasted to a stop in the driveway. He skulked
across the lawn. He wanted to toss pebbles at her window, but there
was something about the light in her room. It was too soft.
Candles. His chest went weak. He knew he should stop right
there. The window was just high enough that he couldn’t see in, so
he grabbed a cinder block from under the front porch.
With his nose two inches from the glass, he saw his wife’s bare back
and ass bouncing on a pair of hairy legs and prayed she was somebody else.
When he recognized the way she leaned forward and ground her hips in circles,
he ducked. He bent over with his hands on his knees. Even years
later, he could not put that moment into words. The next thing he
knew, the cinder block flew through the window. The front door was
mostly paned glass, so T dropped his shoulder and crashed through it, splintering
wood and scattering shards everywhere. In the pitch dark, he exploded
down the hall and burst through the bedroom door. The hairy man hopped
on one bare foot, trying to jam his second leg into a pair of jeans.
T slapped him in the face once, twice, three times, before glancing back
at his topless wife who screamed into the telephone. He grabbed the
man by the throat, drove him across the room, slammed him into a wall.
Without losing his grip, he threw the stranger on the bed and squeezed
until his thumb and middle finger met behind the man’s esophagus.
T froze, and before letting go stared into a face that was petrified.
Two weeks later, he met Darlene at a hippie field wedding and made love
to her in a carrot patch. They had been going out ever since.
*
Every Friday night closest to the full moon the Full Moon Saloon sold
bottled beer for a buck, so T ordered two Budweisers. He left one
standing on the bar and took a big swig of the other as his eyes swept
the room, bulleting from head to head and table to table until he spotted
Darlene’s long blond braid dangling over the back of her chair. Darlene
sat next to some older guy, and she was rubbing his back. When she
whispered in his ear and kissed him on the cheek, T grabbed his other beer
and headed straight for the table. As he got closer he recognized
the man’s blue sport coat, the way his torso leaned awkwardly over thin
legs, his disheveled gray hair. It was Paulie, the guy with cerebral
palsy.
T sat next to Darlene, and Paulie looked the other way. T tugged
her braid. “Hi, babe,” Darlene said, her bright red lips sliding
into a drunken grin. Her eyes were shiny, and she leaned back so
T could see Paulie. “This is my dear sweet friend Paulie,” she said.
The men nodded at each other. T would have bet ten bucks she just
met the bastard tonight. He drank his beer and smoked a cigarette
and felt invisible. He spotted her hand on Paulie’s knee and tugged
her braid again. Darlene smiled. “Ready when you are, babe,”
she said. When she stood up, she was holding Paulie’s hand.
Paulie gripped the edge of the table and pulled himself up with a grimace,
nearly spilling all the drinks. “Darlene promised me a dance,” he
said. The way he raised his knee and clomped his foot down made it
look like he was stomping a bug. With his elbow tucked and his wrist
limp, he leaned sideways, swiveled on his hip, and dragged his other foot.
Darlene piloted them past one table, then another, and onto the empty dance
floor.
Paulie stood stationary, bouncing on his knees and craning his neck
to follow Darlene, who pranced and grooved around him. T took a deep
breath. With the DJ encouraging them, Darlene shimmied, jiggling
her breasts in front of Paulie who doubled his fists and beat invisible
drums. Then he extended his hand. Darlene took it and twirled
beneath his arm, and when she tried to pull herself back up, Paulie toppled
forward and down they both went.
* *
The woods surrounding T’s cabin seemed especially dark and the sounds
of the cicadas washed over him like waves of cynical laughter. Inside
the cabin he picked up Way of the Peaceful Warrior. After their last
fight, Darlene told him he needed this to help him get in touch with his
anger, or maybe his inner child—he couldn’t remember which. He flung
the book across the room and went to bed. He’d left Darlene and Paulie
on the dance floor, and now in the dull red glow of the clock-radio, he
lay on his mattress chanting, Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, nahm-me-yo-ho-ring-gay-key-yo,
doing his best to ignore the scenes in his head.
He spent most of the night watching the ceiling, the walls, the numbers
on the clock-radio. He rose before the sun, donned his Airborne Express
uniform, and sped across town to Darlene’s house, which sat nestled in
woods halfway up Mount Whitehead. He would tell her he was just popping
by on his way to work to make sure she was okay. As he turned down
her dead-end street, he was relieved to see only the one car in her driveway;
then it hit him that Paulie didn’t drive. Beyond the house through
a canvas of trees, an orange spark crept toward the open sky. T made
for the door, grabbed the key from under the mat, and was standing in the
livingroom before anyone could have reacted.
Enya floated out of the stereo. Beer cans, ashtrays, and an empty
liter of Absolut littered the coffee table. On the glass altar, half
a candle still burned. A bead of wax ran down its length. His
eyes fell to the floor in front of the couch, to an object, one that stopped
him cold. A shoe. A tan loafer lying kicked off on its side.
He scanned the floor and couch and chairs for articles of clothing, then
tip-toed across the room and peered down the hall. The bedroom door
was wide open, but he couldn’t see anything. Halfway there, he stopped.
Enya drifted past him to a large lump of covers in the center of the bed.
As he considered this, a bare leg popped out, a black sock on the foot.
His heart sank, and as the bundled heap moved slowly and steadily, he managed
to inch away.
Back in the livingroom, he rattled the doorknob, opened the door and
slammed it. He turned the stereo off. He whistled as he entered
the kitchen, pulled a glass out of the cupboard, and smacked the cupboard
shut. He poured himself some orange juice from the refrigerator,
drank it, and headed back to the bedroom.
The two of them lay on opposite sides of the bed. “Isn’t that
nice?” T said. Nobody moved. Darlene was farthest from T; the
blankets covered everything except the back of her head. Paulie was
on T’s side, his head on T’s pillow, half his face visible. T took
out a cigarette, and when he struck a match, Paulie’s eye snapped open.
T blew smoke toward the bed. “I have all my clothes on,” Paulie said,
his voice groggy and weak, his face ashen. He peeled the covers back
to reveal an untucked white T-shirt, jeans, and the black socks.
T walked toward Paulie, his head buzzing. “Ssshhh,” he whispered.
“Go back to sleep.” He reached next to Paulie’s head and grabbed
Darlene’s alarm clock from the bedside table. He pretended to inspect
and set the alarm, even though it had already been set. Without looking
at Paulie, T returned the clock and made his way to the other side of the
bed. Darlene’s sleeping face made him want to rip the covers off
her. Instead, he kissed her forehead. Without opening her eyes
to see who it was, Darlene smiled and snuggled deeper into her pillow.
Paulie had propped himself on an elbow. T wiggled his fingers
good-bye. In the livingroom, he went straight for the shoe, tucked
it under his arm, and walked out the door.
* *
At Airborne Express, T was good, and everybody knew it. “Best
man here,” the dispatcher recently said. T kept Paulie’s shoe on
the dashboard of the van all day, fantasizing that all his packages contained
it, and that when people opened them and found the shoe they’d know exactly
what it meant and why it was sent. Airborne had just added international
destinations, so T could mail the shoe to Mexico, Canada, or Japan: he
pictured a Japanese father in a tiny well-kept apartment explaining its
significance to his son. “Have shoe, no have kill.”
When he got home from work he wrapped the shoe in aluminum foil and
stuck it in the freezer under some steaks. Darlene would never find
it there. He closed the freezer door.
“Babe?” a voice called from the bathroom. T almost shit.
He pushed open the bathroom door. There she was, in the tub with
knees and face floating on water. Steam rose from the surface.
“Hi,” she said. T said hey, and turned to the foggy mirror and pretended
to pick at a zit. “D’you have a good sleep last night?” he asked.
“Yes,” she said. “Thanks. That was so thoughtful.
Paulie said you stopped by.” T turned as Darlene’s face slid under
water; bubbles preceded her to the surface.
“What the fuck was Paulie doing in your bed?”
Darlene raised an arm and smacked the water, splashing all over the
floor and T’s legs. T stepped back. Her lips trembled as she
told him she was feeling her little girl’s pain right now. She splashed
again. Water climbed the tiled walls. “Don’t!” she yelled,
her face burning.
T backed out and shut the door. From the couch, he listened to
her crying. Bawling was more like it, bawling that swelled to a high-pitched
wailing. He couldn’t believe the sounds she was making, like she
was experiencing indescribable physical pain. T lit a cigarette.
Darlene emerged with a towel on her head and a slip pulled up over her
breasts so that the bottom barely covered the tops of her thighs.
She walked gingerly and carried a little red book. She handed the
book to T and sat next to him on the couch. Her face was pink now,
and calm, and even her eyes had changed to a softer hue of blue.
T opened the book. It was a journal of blank pages, except for
the first page, which was water-spotted and read:
I’m centered now and these are thoughts to my beautiful man.
Let’s not speak. Let’s pass this black pen of our love back and forth
to celebrate this event for the growth it offers us. We’re scared
but we must not run. Let’s shoo the bad energy away like a dog with
his tail between his legs. I was not trying to hurt you but prove
to myself that I was not in love (nothing happened!). How very wrong
I was. I know now I cannot push you out. Thanks for loving
me, babe.
T sat up straight and held his hand out for the pen. He could
not admit to her what he had seen. He wrote: I’m hurt there
was a man in your bed. Thank you for being honest. I love you,
TOO. He passed the journal back to her. After she wrote
for a couple minutes, she handed the journal back to him. Her next
entry said:
Why does the one we love feel pain? —first pain then love, prove
it! Test it! Let myself love and be loved. Love is faith.
Love is messy in cleaning out our lives. Love is tranquil in the
chaos of pain. Love is burnt toast with honey on it. If you
could only touch me inside. To reach through my abdomen and feel
that love. But you cannot touch love. You cannot taste it,
or smell it—only yearn to. I want you beside me, inside me, babe,
every night.
T kissed her on the cheek. “I know,” he said.
Weeks later, he would not be able to articulate exactly how she did
it, how she took his anger and his upper hand and exchanged it for her
belief that this was an opportunity for real love. As they sat in
the wake of the decision that he move into her house, Darlene unbuttoned
his Airborne Express shirt and kissed his chest, and when she asked if
he wanted to be in her mouth, T slowly nodded his head.
As soon as it was over, Darlene rose and went to the kitchen for a glass
of water.
T was paralyzed on the couch.
“Paulie couldn’t find his shoe this morning,” she said.
“Shoe?” T said.
Darlene came back into the room. “A special one to help him walk,”
she said.
“Probably under the couch or something.”
“No,” she said, setting the water down.
“We looked. He says he knows you took it.”
T crinkled his brow. “Why would I want Paulie’s shoe?”
Darlene sat next to him. “Babe, I told him that wasn’t like you,”
she said. She lit a cigarette, blew smoke out the side of her mouth.
T didn’t want her to be nervous; it would be easier for him if she weren’t.
He kissed her on the cheek “Exactly,” he said.
* *
Once T moved in with Darlene, everything about them seethed.
They consumed each other, fighting all the time and making love like animals.
Their arguments were unrestrained and raving, but neither of them mentioned
Paulie’s shoe. T had stashed it under the shed in the backyard and
didn’t think about it much, yet when he did, it burst into his mind unannounced,
reminding him that something was still very much askew. Soon it unnerved
him that she never even mentioned Paulie’s name. He saw her silence
as careless and wished she were a better liar.
When he needed to, T walked or drove to the top of Mount Whitehead to
sit under the giant cross that overlooked Sequoia. He counted the
buildings and streets, the entire city splayed in front of him like a huge
topographical map, and within a few minutes he believed once again his
life was full of possibilities. Their worst fights happened on Sundays
when neither of them had to work, so T often found himself on an early
Sunday evening sitting beneath the cross waiting for it to glow blue while
the sun weakened and the air grew chilly. He’d gaze down upon the
city and all its twinkling lights and imagine all the little people with
all their little problems; only then could he return to Darlene.
The shoe stayed buried. One day when the novelty of playing house
had begun to wane, Darlene and T decided to hit Buckhorn Street for the
first time in weeks. They began late that afternoon at The Isles
of Golden Dreams, then caught the end of happy hour at The Pelican Roost.
As it was getting dark, in walked T’s ex-wife. She was followed by
the hairy man and went straight to a large table where a group of drinkers
rose to greet them. T was happy to notice the bitch had put on some
pounds. “I can’t believe she’s still with that little shit,” he said.
Darlene suggested they leave.
At Fat Rat’s Tap, Zeppelin blared from speakers suspended from the ceiling.
Old men clogged the domino tables. They took the only open pool table
and played Nineball for two hours and downed three pitchers of beer.
T squatted and stared at Darlene’s crotch as he pulled balls from the belly
of the table. He glanced to the front door and saw Paulie, his body
twisting its way toward the bar. T racked the balls for Darlene to
break. Paulie pulled himself onto a barstool. T steadied the
rack and gently lifted it away.
“Paulie’s here,” he said.
Darlene said she’d recently seen Paulie at the IGA and had told him
to call her about a tarot card reading. T chalked his cue.
“Break ‘em,” he said. During the next game, he stole glances at Paulie.
He hated Paulie’s being there, laughing and drinking it up, telling his
damn story to anyone who’d listen.
Darlene lit a cigarette and said, “We need another pitcher, babe.
I’ll rack for you.”
T didn’t want more beer. They’d had enough. But he grabbed
the empty pitcher and headed toward the bar. Four or five people
down, Paulie jabbered in front of a large jar of pickled eggs. T
couldn’t hear much over the general hullabaloo. Rat waddled over
and snatched the pitcher.
“Where’s my shoe?” a voice called.
T snapped a ten dollar bill taut with both hands.
“Where’s my shoe?!” he heard again.
Thin red veins laced Paulie’s nose and cheeks. T cupped his hand
next to his ear. “What?” he said.
“My shoe!” Paulie shouted.
Everyone looked, but T didn’t flinch.
“Can’t hear you!” he shouted back, then flashed Paulie a grin and paid
for his pitcher.
T poured Darlene a beer, and she asked him if he bought smokes.
The question seemed odd—Darlene hadn’t asked for them. T shrugged.
Darlene meandered toward the bar. Heads turned. A small group
had gathered around Paulie. T retreated to the men’s room where they
had replaced the old toilet with a stainless steel tub. He rested
his forehead on the cool tile above it and kept his eyes closed while his
piss roared like an engine in the shiny new metal.
When he came out, he didn’t see Darlene. Paulie had disappeared
as well. Pool balls clacked. For a few frantic seconds, before
she emerged from the women’s room, T convinced himself Darlene was with
Paulie in the backseat of her car.
Paulie had indeed left, and once T concluded this, he acted up, twirling
his stick like a baton, skipping around the table, clapping, laughing uproariously—making
Darlene giggle and shake her head. She liked him more when he was
happy, she said, and T gave her a big kiss. “Love everybody,” she
said. “We’re all brothers and sisters.” T happily agreed, pounding
two beers to her one. At closing time, he knocked over a stool and
slurred an apology. Darlene draped his arm around her neck.
Wobbling, T asked her if she wanted to dance.
Outside, she laid him on the sidewalk and hopped on the pay phone to
call for a ride. T gazed high above Buckhorn Street at the stars.
“My shoe!” he heard.
T’s head swirled and his eyes slid down the sky and stopped on Paulie’s
face. “I want my it! It’s mine!”
T lifted his head but couldn’t sit up.
Paulie stood far enough away so that even if T had summoned the energy
and coordination he still couldn’t have kicked Paulie’s legs out from under
him. “Where is it?!” Paulie demanded.
T’s head clunked on the sidewalk. “Ow,” he said, and closed his
eyes.
“Cool it, Paul!” Darlene shouted from the pay phone.
T laughed. Everything was spinning. He lay benumbed until
Darlene and her friend helped him to his feet. Before he ducked into
the car, he looked for Paulie, but saw nobody, just Buckhorn Street, the
store fronts, the neon sign blinking: Fat Rat’s Tap.
* *
T and Darlene didn’t have a shower, but they had a big lion-clawed
tub. T enjoyed his peaceful, early morning bubble baths. But
today he was nauseous and stayed in the tub too long, annoyed at always
having to look over his shoulder for Paulie. Even as the water turned
cold, the longer T waited the harder it was to get out.
When he finally rose, he was shivering. He swallowed five aspirins
and stumbled out the door wearing a towel. He wished he had the energy
to stroll the crown of Mount Whitehead, sit at the base of the cross for
a chant. Instead, he went behind the house, leaned against a tree,
and vomited. He got on his knees and felt around under the shed until
his hand found the shoe. He stood up staring at it like it was a
crystal ball, or a genie’s lamp, then dropped it on the ground and slipped
in his foot. Paulie’s shoe fit perfectly. He limped in a circle,
dragging his foot and holding an arm against his chest. “Darlene
done promised me a dance,” he said.
The screen door smacked on the other side of the house. T kicked
the shoe off and stuffed it under the shed before Darlene rounded the corner.
She wore a T-shirt, no panties, and her hair hung like a cape. “You
okay, babe?”
“No,” T said.
“I heard you throwing up. Sounded awful.” She squatted and
smoothed his hair.
Her toenails were painted red.
“Sometimes you’re not there and I panic,” T said. He plopped his
head on her shoulder.
“I’m with you, babe,” Darlene said. “ We’re right where
we need to be.”
A plane flew overhead. T tipped his head back and followed the
sound across the blue sky. Darlene caressed his shoulder.
“Where are you?” she said.
“Up there,” T said.
“Where are you going?” she asked.
“Down,” was T’s answer as he rolled her onto her back and kissed between
her legs. They were making love in the grass when she said she wanted
him to come inside her. “In my mouth, babe,” she added, rubbing her
heels on his back. “The way you like.”
Afterwards, she lay next to T with her legs casually spread. He
didn’t know his eyes had welled until he picked his head up and saw her
face register his. “I have to tell you something,” he said.
“What, babe?”
“I have Paulie’s shoe.”
Darlene put her hand on T’s cheek and stared at him lovingly.
“Thank you,” she said. She sat up and gave him a hug.
“I’m so embarrassed,” T mumbled.
Darlene hugged him tighter.
A few minutes later, she returned the shoe to the house and filled it
with sea salts to cleanse it of negative energy. She placed it on
the glass altar and surrounded it with candles. She instructed T
to release an impure thought about Paulie as he lit each one. Love,
babe, she reassured him. T beat Paulie senseless with different household
objects: statue of Buddha, hunk of crystal, broomstick. After the
candles were lit, she held his hand and said, “What will happen to us?”
She was scared. He asked her what she meant. “You think you’ll
marry me?”
T felt his cheeks redden. This was the first time he’d ever thought
of her as someone to marry, and suddenly she seemed desperate and pitiable.
“I don’t know,” he said.
“You better,” she said.
Darlene was visibly shaken by her inept proposal, and this unexpected
glimpse into her unsettled T. Nevertheless, he followed more instructions.
He blew out the candles, conjuring a positive thought about Paulie before
each one. Paulie’s my brother, he told himself. Paulie was
just being Paulie. Poor bastard had the chance of a lifetime.
T imagined shooting stick with Paulie at Fat Rat’s Tap, dancing like crazy
men at the Full Moon Saloon, their heads back howling. He needs me,
T believed, and he pictured them at Wendy’s Wonderbar, punching one another
in the arm and raising shots of Wild Turkey. He would invite Paulie
over for some beers. The three of them would drink all night, friends
forever. Before blowing out the last candle, T saw Paulie striding
confidently down the sidewalk.
* *
Three weeks went by. Although T’s intentions were genuine, he
never got around to dealing with the shoe. One day he delivered an
overnight letter to one of his ex-wife’s professors whom he had briefly
befriended on his arrival in Sequoia. The professor, a man, told
T his ex-wife was pregnant with the hairy man’s child.
T didn’t get home from work that night until after ten because he volunteered
to rush an overlooked parcel to Tulsa to meet the plane. The dispatcher
preferred T because T did not dally: he knew the most direct routes and
he drove fast and furious and never got ticketed. T kept the Airborne
Express van overnight instead of driving it all the way back to base and
inside the house found a note from Darlene that said she was having a drink
with a friend. T grabbed the shoe off the glass altar, poured the
sea salt in a neat pile, and drove to Buckhorn Street to find Paulie.
It was time.
The first bar he checked was The Friendly Inn. It was dark and
quiet. There were four men bellied-up to the bar. All of them
looked except for Paulie. T held the bag behind his back and placed
his free hand on Paulie’s shoulder.
“Brother Paul,” he said.
Paulie leaned sideways to get a better look. “You!” he said.
“I do believe I have your shoe,” T said.
He dropped to one knee while pulling the gift out of the bag.
With two hands he presented the shoe as if it were on a platter.
“I knew it,” Paulie said. He pointed at T. “I knew it!”
T took the stool next to Paulie, setting the shoe on the bar between
them.
“What’d she tell you?” Paulie asked.
“What’s your pleasure, T?” the bartender asked. T winked,
fished out his cigs, and said he wanted her coldest Bud.
“It was just part of my path, man,” he said to Paulie, and shrugged.
Paulie stirred his drink with his middle finger. “The fuck you
talking about?”
“We’re all exactly where we need to be,” T said.
Paulie crunched his ice. “Damn straight,” he said. He thumped
the bar and laughed.
“Hell, ain’t no big deal is it? Got me a similar situation right
now.”
“Yeah?” T said.
“Yip,” Paulie said. “Married. Meeting her at eleven.”
He looked at his wrist where there was no watch. “Hell,” he said.
“You know how it is.” He clapped T on the back.
T looked at him. “Oh, I know how it is, Paulie.”
“Look it,” Paulie said. “I don’t blame you for being hot.
I’d be super pissed that was me walking in there seeing what you seen.
But hell, nothing happened.”
“Yup, that’s what she told me, Paulie.” T spied the bottle of
Wild Turkey.
“You shouldn’t have taken my shoe,” Paulie said. “That’s what
I say.”
“I saw you, big guy,” T said.
Paulie swirled his ice, tipped some into his mouth. “Shoulda
throwed my ass out,” he said.
“Think so?” T said.
“Damn straight,” Paulie said. He leaned over the bar to find the
bartender. T glanced at the Wild Turkey again. As Paulie came
back down on his stool it swiveled and he would’ve fallen clean off had
T not grabbed him by the collar and held him up.
“Let me tell you a little secret, Paulie,” T said. “Last
time it took me five thousand bucks to get out of it. This time,
I just took the fucking shoe.”
Paulie sighed. “Damn,” he said.
“Not your fault,” T said. With two fingers, he pushed the shoe
along the bar. “Airborne Express,” he said. “Five month delivery.”
Paulie shook his head. “I don’t want that,” he said.
T didn’t think he heard him right. “What?”
“Don’t want it.”
“Brother Paul,” T said. “You’re not being brotherly.” He
snubbed out his smoke. The bartender cleared her throat. “Accept
your shoe,” T said. “Please.”
“Okay,” Paulie said. “I accept.” He picked up the shoe and
flung it over everybody’s head. T heard it land in the trash barrel
behind the bar. Bottles clanked.
“Nothing but net,” the bartender said.
With both hands, Paulie clutched himself above the knee, lifted, and
dropped his foot on the floor. He edged his way off the stool.
“And now if you’ll excuse me,” he said.
He clomped and dragged his way to the exit. When he pulled open
the glass door, T shouted, “You’re an asshole!”
Headlights slashed across Paulie’s back as he raised his fist and disappeared.
The men at the bar were eyeballing T.
T turned away and sank into his barstool.
He was thinking about Darlene. Something told him to drive to
Mount Whitehead and chant in the blue glow of the cross until this negative
energy dissipated. “Fuck that,” T said.
“T?” the bartender asked.
“Shot a Turkey,” T said.
The bartender pulled the Wild Turkey off the shelf and set a shot glass
in front of him. While she poured, raising and lowering the bottle,
T was behind the windshield of his van. He downed the shot and spanked
the empty glass on the bar. His chest burned. This was it.
He stomped the gas and blew past the cross. Parked cars whooshed
by him like dark clouds and porch lights blinked like stars as he zoomed
round and round the crown of Mount Whitehead waiting for the wheels to
lift off the ground.
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