Oliver
de la Paz
The
Fisherman's Chronicle
Domingo
hears bells on a red buoy clang in rhythm. On the prow, he spreads his
legs apart to steady himself, the horizon dipping and rising before him.
Then he sits and sleeps. The nets drag their brash hairs in the wake.
A
sea marker rings, urgent and secret, as a gull nests on its perch. It is
this way for hours: only two voices. Soon the gull goes looking for the
sky.
Domingo,
snoring in indigo, disappears as the sun sets. Far away, the harbor lights
close like a sequined hand.
What
the Laundry Told Maria Elena
Maria
Elena's hands are cloth, the silk feel of foam-caked garments from washing
the whites in a big basin. There are spots she agonizes over--the one with
blood from her boy's first flight, grass stains on the knees of his jeans
from prayer or a stumble. She remembers her son, Fidelito, always wandering
beneath the constellations' steady teeth. Now the mouths of his pant legs
open with weightlessness, as if coming up for breath, as if flying among
the soapy-clouds, and she prays: Let me be done with this load. Let drowned
clothes stay drowned so long as they come out clean. Let stains speak no
more of what they saw of sky and of the fall.
Cupboard
Full of Halos
After
he fills the junk drawer in the kitchen with wreaths made from scraps of
paper, cloth, and sticks, Fidelito stores new ones in a cupboard above
the stove.
He
drags a stool from the garage and sets it to reach the place where Maria
Elena keeps cookbooks. In the multi-hued halos go, forced. Some of them
tumble out like hula-hoops onto linoleum. Others become bracelets and slide
down his arms as he reaches up to stop them.
When
he closes the door, Fidelito forgets until his mother, ready to cook, opens
the cupboard. They spill to her from the dark, a noise of coins from another
world.
Maria
Elena Puts His Good Shoes Away
After
the death of Domingo Recto, his shoes by the door wait to go outside. They
know his bare feet are cold. The cracked leather tips shift their weight.
The left's worn inside edge, a plow. The rubber sole of the right, smooth
at the toe. His shoes tear earth with their paces. They don't rest. Listen--they
leave tracks in soil. Because of footfall, Maria Elena can't sleep. In
the kitchen, the tacky sound of gum on tile, the squeak of rubber down
halls, the thud of mud track.
They
are the shoes of the dead. know that by their tongues. The laces drag,
limp hairs of ghosts. Fidelito hears them too, and it frightens him. In
life it was Domingo's footstep to tuck him into bed, floor-boards groan
from the man heavy with years. And now those shoes walk by themselves .
. .
When
Fidelito tried them on he stumbled, his gait too small. Only one person
could move those shoes, passing in the night with open mouths.
Maria
Elena puts them in the closet to forget, only to find them huddled at the
foot of her bed by dawn. She is hopeless from the garments of the dead.
They find ways into her sight. If Maria Elena were to give them to a bare-footed
stranger, one day when on an errand she is sure she would see them down
some alleyway. Hear them hop up the street to greet her like a savage bird--
Somewhere
Domingo trudges, unshod. And the ground before him is misstep. She sees
the shape of the loafers by the door in the weird light of a candle and
wonders whether Domingo knows which way dust floats on a worn path or if
there are simple eulogies for his shoes which outlast him.
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