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Poetry by Toby Leah Bochan
Stone Soup
You know the story:
Everyone puts something in the pot.
Something from nothing.
A stone and some water
in a great iron kettle.
Then a hambone from the cobbler.
Of course you are
the stone and I am the water. Why not?
You are steady, a
constant.
I was going to write
a sestina. A long rambling thing
using the six words:
water, pot, spoon.
Right, I only had
three.
Sometimes I feel
I am that kid with the pot
on his head, banging
it with a wooden spoon.
Water because it
shakes, rattles, and rolls--
Also: because it
runs hot and cold.
I was going to put
something about smoking pot--
Maybe that night
I didn’t cry in bed.
You told me I wanted
everything to be settled.
I told myself, settle
down, settle down.
It was bedtime. I
expected stories.
Form of an ocean.
Shape of a mermaid.
Maybe also you’re
that big stone, the moon
A big cold light
in the sky that pulls
I’m teasing. The
story before: the one about helping
each other. That’s
what I want you to remember.
Throw everything
in or get out while you can.
I’m in chest-deep.
Now the water is boiling.
"It’s time for you
to stop trying to be so smart."
-Suzanne Wise, Advice
It’s time for you
to listen to advice before
Dismissing it. If
you must intellectualize, consider
The flaws of the
fleshy brain, its myriad fissures, the dust
In the crevices,
vital details folding themselves with rust.
It’s time to throw
away thoughts of thoughts-- the pyramids
Built into the air
of words. Time to look up instead.
The sky will never
be the same again.
Time to make the
donuts, even if you don’t eat them,
Make them for the
smell, for the yield of dough, for others.
Watch the children
pick sweets by color.
How they grab at
simple joys, handfuls of wishes. You
Wish you could map
each curve of life against life, plot
To the end points,
predetermine failure. Do you think it helps to
Know the names for
the stages of grief? Coward, it does not.
Futurist
post-heartbreak dinner:
A solo meal, to be
served while the heartbreak is still fresh. The
heartbroken is lead into a small room where she
sits naked at a dark aubergine velvet chair at
a black marble table lit by a small lantern of
colored glass. In the lantern, a candle containing
the scent of cool church stones burns. There she
is given a tiny vial of warm cognac and a golden
mosquito net is drawn around her. Already at the
table, there is a hot towel infused with lavender
to soothe the chapped skin of the heartbroken.
After listening to several poems by Louise Glück
read in a melodious female voice, the curtains
are barely parted to allow the Lovebirds post
Tartar to be served.
Lovebirds post Tartar:
A tiny quail, head still attached and tucked underneath
one tiny wing, is crusted with pure sea salt,
sprayed with lemon juice squeezed by hand straight
from a whole ripe Meyer lemon, and bound with
whole branches of rosemary. The bird is then wrapped
and roasted in a clay oven in last year’s yellowed
newspaper on which old love poems are written
in blue ink in Latin. It is then placed on a bamboo
plate and unwrapped, so that the quail’s head
may be raised and a single pomegranate seed may
be placed in the beak of the quail, which will
crush it when the head is replaced under the wing,
causing a single red drop of juice to run down
to the paper. To be eaten with the fingers, with
the sound of rain on a tin roof.
After the heartbroken
has tasted the Lovebirds post Tartar, a slender
woman oiled with the finest virgin olive oils
and wearing a thin cotton robe one shade lighter
than the sky takes the heartbroken outside for
the Antipasto Interlude.
Antipasto interlude:
while walking outside, a single coffee bean is
chewed, followed by a rough mint leaf, one raw
chanterelle mushroom. A piece of maple sugar candy
in the shape of a ring is placed on the heartbroken’s
tongue to melt. Finally they drink a palmful of
water from a cold green lake.
When the Antipasto
Interlude has renewed the senses of the heartbroken,
she is led into another room where she will find
Dessert of exquisite remorse already waiting for
her.
Dessert of exquisite
remorse: to be eaten alone. A long knifesliver
of bitter unsweetened chocolate is placed against
a black plate. This is buried under four whole
but peeled blood oranges which have been soaked
overnight in a tin bucket, outside by a waxing
moon in red wine at least a decade old. Scatter
the plate with crystallized baby's breath and
one perfect boat of endive, not to be eaten. Before
serving this dish on a heavy table set with raw
ivory silk and two chairs, spill a thimbleful
of the best champagne, a thimbleful of black truffle
oil, and a thimbleful of a paste of saffron and
red caviar in front of the one chair which will
remain empty. Open the windows and let in the
smell of the rain from the west. A single sustained
and trembling note is played on a cello, which
will stop the moment the first bite is taken.
The heartbroken will
be unable to eat more than the first bite of the
dessert in the silence, and quickly she is served,
by a young child with bells on her ankles, a second
small salad of hope. A fire is lit, into which
all sorts of powders are thrown, to cause the
fire to blaze in chartreuse and magenta and turquoise
hues.
Second small salad
of hope: A whole heart of romaine lettuce, very
cold and stood on end in a mound made of a fist
of crushed raspberries, shredded radicchio and
9 long flat curls of parmesan cheese. Atop the
tower of romaine, one purple and yellow edible
pansy is placed.
The dinner is over
when the salad is eaten, if ever.
American Beauty
What is it to call blood roses,
to give
a flower the ability to be riotous,
agitated, as if the daffodils lined
in front of my house were not
simply planted but protesting
ready to throw the nearby bed
of rocks through my window?
What is it to give the dewy drops
wrung from the necks of honeysuckle
the power to grant wishes, to hate
the jacaranda’s panicles of pale
purple flowers
for the memory they bring?
Is this poetry? To see the way a
tree bends
towards the light as greed
instead of survival, to attribute
the green
of a leaf to envy instead of chlorophyll?
Is there so much pain
in us that we must push it off,
force
it onto the thorns and brambles
and still
have more, so we hide our fears
under thin petals--
Poor roses, who want only,
like children
About
the Author
After having her speaking role in SNL's
Gumby's Christmas sketch stolen by "The Orange Juice
Girl," Toby Leah Bochan gave up on acting and started
writing instead, where she "does the juicing, if you
know what I mean." Her poems have appeared in places
such as The Red River Review, Ellipsis and The Threepenny
Review and are forthcoming in Quarterly West, The
Beloit Poetry Journal and online at Aileron.
You can reach this New York City girl at nycgirl@rocketmail.com
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